Monday, February 21, 2011

Week 2 Begins

Weight:  264 lbs
Weekly Weight Loss:  8 lbs
Total Weight Loss:  8 lbs

This morning before I stepped on the scale I considered weighing this evening instead after I had done one more work out with Jillian.  However, that's not what I had planned to do in the beginning, so I decided to stay with it and be happy with whatever number popped up on the scale.  I wasn't expecting an eight.  After all, there was the girl scout cookie fiasco and on Wednesday night I had a live online debate for one of my master's classes so I didn't get to workout. 

My clothes don't fit any differently, and my body still looks and feels the same.  The last time I tried to lose weight it was the same thing.  It took me losing 20 pounds before I noticed.  What happened with that?  It was the Biggest Loser at my mom's school.  I signed up thinking the competition would motivate me to get healthy.  Then it became all about the numbers of everyone else.  I killed myself dieting and exercising sometimes twice a day.  It wasn't fun and depriving myself of things made me gorge on weigh in days.  I did really good the first few months.  Then Thanksgiving hit.  I started eating and I couldn't stop.  I quit exercising because I felt like a failure.  It was depressing watching everyone else's numbers go down and mine bob from gaining to losing what I had gained, so I quit trying.  I gave up.  This time it's going to be different.  I'm not dieting.  I'm changing.  Watch out waistline!  This time you're gone for good! 

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